A Walk to Remember

Love is like the wind.
I can't see it,
but I can feel it.

Thank you for the music - ABBA

Thank you for the music

I'm nothing special, in fact I'm a bit of a bore.
If I tell a joke, you've probably heard it before
But I have a talent, a wonderful thing
'Cause everyone listens when I start to sing
I'm so grateful and proud
All I want is to sing it out loud

So I say
Thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing
Thanks for all the joy they're bringing
Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty
What would life be?
Without a song or a dance what are we?
So I say thank you for the music
For giving it to me

Mother says I was a dancer before I could walk
She says I began to sing long before I could talk
And I've often wondered, how did it all start?
Who found out that nothing can capture a heart
Like a melody can?
Well, whoever it was, I'm a fan

So I say
Thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing
Thanks for all the joy they're bringing
Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty
What would life be?
Without a song or a dance what are we?
So I say thank you for the music
For giving it to me

I've been so lucky, I am the girl with golden hair
I wanna sing it out to everybody
What a joy, what a life, what a chance!

So I say
Thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing
Thank you all the joy they're bringing
Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty
What would life be?
Without a song or a dance what are we?
So I say thank you for the music
For giving it to me

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One of the greatest bands I've ever known.
Though their songs are old pops, they always appeal me from the heart.

Nelson Mandela's cell

I watched a movie, 'Invictus' last month. The best part of the movie was the scene of a cell of Nelson Mandela, former president of South Africa. I didn't know that he had stayed there for 27 years. That fact made me respect him that he did not give up his will for freedom and developing South Africa in educational and political aspects.

It is sometimes hard for me to wait or stand something just for a few months to achieve something. So, it seems almost impossible for me to stand for 27 years in this small cell with dreaming the same goal. He educated himself in the cell through books and bachelor's degree, and did not give up his dream for peace and equility.

Although I can do everything, and I am not tied up by anything, I sometimes feel like I have some barriers in front of me. I doubt about my future and some next plans that I'm longing for because of many reasons such as economic burden, relationships, and uncertainity about myself.

Maybe I might be the one who makes those barriers in this free world.

I found some good quotes from Madiba (honoraly title adopted by elders of Mandela's clan) and the movie, Invictus to encourage myself.

"I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triuph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear."

"It is better to lead from behind and to put others in front, especially when you celebrate victory when nice things occur. You take the front line when there is danger. Then people will appreciate your leadership."

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,

Black as the Pit from pole to pole,

I thank whatever gods may be

For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance

I have not winced nor cried aloud.

Under the bludgeonings of chance

My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears

Looms but the Horror of the shade,

And yet the menace of the years

Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,

How charged with punishments the scroll.

I am the master of my fate.

I am the captain of my soul.

- William Ernest Henley

My parents' 25th wedding anniversary

Nov 21st was my parents' 25th wedding anniversary. I forgot the date of their anniversary so I could not visit them or send them any gift. In Korea, the 25th wedding anniversary is called 은혼식, the Silver Wedding Anniversary. (50th is the golden wedding anniversary, and 60th is the diamond one). Anyway, it was very important day for all of the family members. So, I felt so sorry for my parents because I was the person who rarely forgot my friends' birth days and special days. What was worse, my father was busy on that day, and he could not decide what he should give a gift to my mom until the day passed. So, my mom was kind of disappointed with him and her children. (My brother was had no choice but to do nothing because he was in army.)

So, I visited my parents last week, one week later from the anniversary, to make my mom feel better. I wanted to make something special so I made a cake by myself for the first time in my life. Thanks for my friend's help, I could find the place that I could make a cake by myself. (It is not common to make a cake at home in Korea) It was not easy, but it was so much fun to make my own cake. I was not an artistic person, but I could write letters well, so I wrote down some celebrating notes around the cake. Fortunately, My parents loved the cake though it was not that pretty like the cakes in the bakery. I also felt happy too to be able to do something as a daughter. To make the cake was not that expensive, about 20 dollars. So, I think I could try to make another one for Christmas or New Years Day.

My X-mas Wish

I wish Santa gives me a netbook. Lately, I feel heavier when I take my laptop to outside. It seems like laptop is not 'Lap' top anymore. (It is heavy when I put it on my lap for a while.) I envy people who bring their small, cute, and light netbook instead of laptops. I want to use my computer in the cafe, library, and on campus. Not just at home. But, I am really poor thesedays, and it doesn't seem that I can buy it soon. So, I'll just pray to God for giving me a chance to get the netbook.

Insomnia

I cannot sleep well these days. It was started from a mosquito. The mosquito came to my room maybe two weeks ago. The first day, I rarely could sleep becuase of the smart mosquito. I could hear the sound of flying mosquito, but as soon as I turned on the light, the one was disappeared. It is not even summer. It's totally fall, and I'm struggling with the mosquito thing. Maybe my insomnia is not just from the mosquito. Maybe because of other reasons. I don't know. I visited the fortune teller last week just for fun. And she said that I would be unstable in this year, it is not because of me and my situation, but it is because of the power of universe. The power makes me worry about and scary of something. Hmm, then I should just wait for next year. Actually, I hope time goes fast these days for many reasons.

A lot like love

The best movie among the movies that I recently watched. I haven't thought that Ashton Kutcher is cute until I watched the movie. Now, I envy Demi Moore. I loved Amanda Peet more in the movie though. This movie made me think a lot and lot. What should I choose between the ducks in a row and the love?

It's gonna be hard to be the win-win game. If I get the love, I'll lose my future, and if I get the future, I'll lose the love. Is it fair? Maybe. It might be the reason if I choose my way because it means I love myself more than anyone else. Although I watched the whole movie, I still cannot answer the question that the movie askes. If you were Oliver, what you would do. The movie seems like it sides with the love than the future. However, I think Oliver would have difficulty of something anyway though he choose to stay with Emily 5 or 3 years ago in the movie. Or, they could realize how much they love each other because they missed each other for a long time and had to experience difficulties which might make their love stronger.

Hmm. I don't know. I guess there is no right answer for everyone about the topic.

OST was great in the movie, and beautiful scenes... I wish I could spend the New Year's day like that in the movie. I guess I should check out more movies of two actors.